In view of Hurricane Harvey and the rescue efforts now underway, I am posting notes from my journal when I was posted in Gulfport, Mississippi in the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina.
Day One: Waiting
On the morning of September 17, we meet at the office and a chair van driver takes us up to the airport. There are five of us: two medics, two EMTs, and a mechanic. When we go through the ticketing the airline agent puts a red mark on our tickets and says, we’re all special. I am thinking, isn’t this nice. They are recognizing our efforts and are going to be upgrading us to first class or maybe giving us complimentary access to the VIP lounge while we wait for the flight.
When we go through security, we find out what the red mark means. We have been tagged as security risks (probably because we bought our tickets at the last minute). We stand with our feet spread, arms held out while we are beamed with electronic wands, and then frisked, and have to watch as they painstakingly go through every item in our bags.
The flight is uneventful. We are met at the airport by two company employees in a big yellow school bus. We find out both of them lost everything in the storm. The guy driving the bus has a tee-shirt that says “Everything is Good.” The young woman tells us that the storm in their area hit rich and poor alike. People have empathy for each other.
As we head to the coast we begin to see the effects. At first it is just a few bent trees, some blue tarps on roofs, torn highway signs. We see a WA MART, a Burger King underneath a sign that has been blown out. The traffic is brutal as some regular bridges are out. In the water we see what was once a railroad bridge, but is now just unconnected trestles. We see uprooted trees. Boarded up stores. Some stores have “Open” painted on the boards or whitewashed wre windows remain. We see stores with caved in roofs. A motel appears open, but several rooms have no doors or windows. We go by a marina where a shrimp boat sits up on top of the supply store. It is not a sign boat, but a huge working shrimp boat. The woods are scattered with lumber and trash. We pass a large shopping center and see huge tents with a line or people standing outside. Small trucks pass us loaded with supplies, signs taped to their doors “Disaster Relief.” They come from church groups. Volunteer fire departments. Some are just unaffiliated families who loaded up supplies from neighbors and headed South. The licence plates are from all over the US.
Another shopping center has a long line of cars in rows waiting to recieve supplies. I see pallets of food, bottled water.
People carry large bags of ice. Nearbye an entrepenuer sells t-shirts. “I survived the Big One – Katrina August 28, 2005” for $15.
We arrive at our base in an industrial park. The company headquarters has sprouted a tent city, rows of port-o-potties, decon showers, a mess, and supply areas. We are greeted and get a tour.
We are told not to drink the water. Don’t even use it to brush your teeth. There are pallets stacked high with bottled water, and coolers of ice. We learn we will bunk inside in a large converted training room that now has rows of military cots. We get tetnus and hepatitis A shots, make copies of our licenses, and then are told we won’t be going on the road until the next day. They are running 12 hour shifts. We will be paired with a local EMT. In disaster conditions we have full reciprocity and can practice under our own state’s protocols.
It is now about four in the afternoon and they are serving dinner. I feel bad about eating without having done any work. The food is great — steak, mashed potatoes, crawfish pasta, biscuit and turtle pie. I hear later they have hired a chef from one of the casinos that was destroyed in the storm.
I am wishing they would send us out on the road even if only for a few hours. I don’t like feeling like the new guy in camp. I ask myself what am I anxious about. How different can it be? You’re a medic. A call is a call. You’re at home in an ambulance.
It is hot. We drink lots of water, sit about. There are people from all over the country here: California, the Northwest, Texas, Miami, Georgia, the NorthEast.
They give us tee-shirts to wear with the company logo on the front and on the back “Disaster Team Gulfport 2005.”
Your car will be gassed, 02 changed, gear checked and ready to go for you in the morning, I am told. I get my shift assignment 530-1730. That suits me fine. The sooner the better.
Many people in camp are going through caffine withdrawl. I hear something about a FEMA mandate against caffine in a disaster area because it dehydrates workers. So everyone now has intense headaches. I am going to need my Diet Coke in the morning.
Day Two- Hellhound on My Trail
I sleep well thanks to the foam earplugs that drown out a room of snoring EMSers.
I shower, have a breakfast of sausage patties, poppyseed muffins and apple juice, then collect the truck keys, radio, and narc pouch(a fanny pack that included 20 of morphine and 20 of valium), then check out the gear. The ambulance has a life pack 10, a 02 bag and a medic bag with the drugs and IV supplies.
My partner is a woman with a thick Mississippi accent. I canâ€™t make out what she is saying and when I tell her my name, she thinks I am saying something about a computer. I ask her how she fared in the storm, and she says her house made it okay, but she lost many trees. She looks tired, and tells me she overslept and had to rush to get in. She tells me a story about someone, but I have trouble following it â€“ something about a relative wearing a life preserver to keep from drowning in a hot tub they are so drunk.
As we drive to our post, we pass a huge tent city and a sea of utility power vehicles lined up as far as the eye can see. The traffic is slow due to a convoy of Army vehicles. At least half the cars on the road are ladder trucks. We stop to get coffee and the parking lot is full of telephone repair vehicles.
Our post is in the north part of the county. The sticks. My partner says its not the best post for me to see anything. Itâ€™s slow up there and we could go all day without a call. A half hour later we get a call for an accident on a long country road and find everyone out of the cars. No one wants to go to the hospital, not even a young woman with a pretty good seat belt abrasion. We go back to our post.
We sit engine idling. Its 100 degrees and humid out. At least our AC works.
I read a book about the blues legend Robert Johnson, who was from Mississippi. He canâ€™t play a lick, then disappears for a few years, comes back and is so good everyone believes he has made a deal with the devil to play like he does. He is the man who wrote â€œCrossroads,â€ â€œLove in Vain,â€ and â€œMe and the Devil.â€
I watch â€œLove-bugsâ€ on the windshield. I donâ€™t know what the deal is with these two-headed insects that are everywhere. The bigger end drags the smaller end around. They appear to be two insects attached to each other at the but ends. I contemplate cutting the head off one to see if the other end will die. My partner tells me they are in fact two insects, and this is mating season. The bugs are everywhere. It is not unusual to see two or more couples going at it at the same time. The grilles of trucks that pull into the country store â€“ a feed and saddle show — are black with the bugs.
We get some walkup calls. A kid stepped on a nail. I ask him if he wants a tetanus shot â€“ they give us a bag of the shots in the morning to give to anyone who needs one â€“ but he got one yesterday from the car that was posted out there. Another young man asks me to take a look at his foot. He dropped a cement block on it two days ago. He has what looksÂ like an infected wound on the top of his foot, and a swollen ankle. I press against the bone and he winces. â€œYOU need to go to the hospital,â€ I say. â€œI think itâ€™s broken.â€ He just shrugs and says he isnâ€™t done working for the day. â€œIâ€™m not kidding. This isnâ€™t going to fix itself. You donâ€™t get care, youâ€™ll be limping for the rest of your life.â€ â€œI got two more hours of work today. Canâ€™t let the boss down.â€ He says he may go see a doctor when he gets off. A mother with a baby with a fever of 103.8 asks for directions to the hospital. It seems people are on the stoic side in this state.
We eat lunch at a gas station/food mart that has a small grille in the back. I order fried oysters, but they say since the hurricane there have been no oysters. Instead I get a fried catfish â€œpo-boyâ€ which is the catfish served on French bread. I also order fried okra and corn. While we are eating, two young men come in looking dazed. They are not from the neighborhood. They say they both lived down by the beach. â€œThereâ€™s nothing there,â€ one says. â€œIts all gawn. Itâ€™s all gawn.â€ They say they are living in a car.
I give the waitress a tetanus shot. Everyone else has had them. We go back out and sit in the ambulance. The sun is beating down hard now. The AC barely holding its own. On the radio, other cars are getting called. Nothing going on in our area.
There are some interesting bits in the paper. A family five miles inland has a three-foot shark in their front yard pond. The areas golf courses are chewed up, but a few have opened for nine holes. The local birdwatcher says birds are just now starting to return to the beach. The third oldest house on the Gulf Coast was completely destroyed.
The radio is reporting another hurricane brewing in the Gulf that by Wednesday should be due South of us.
At four my partner requests a post change and they send us down to a central area. The stores here are battered. On the main road, which is lined with strip malls, shopping centers and gas stations and fast food stores, there is hardly a tall sign that is not blown out. I see a chick-Filet Restaurant, which they do not have in the North. I savor their sandwiches, but they like most of the restaurants are closed. An hour passes with no calls and they send us in. Instead of going right back to the base, my partner takes me down to the shore and it is there where I see what it is all about.
The destruction, particuarly along the waterfront is astounding. Miles of beachfront homes, apartments and businesses are no longer there. Further inland homes are crumpled into piles of lumber, others with roofs torn off, windows blown out.
It wasnâ€™t the wind, my partner says, but the tidal surge. I later hear a tale of a man who tried to ride out the store in his newly built mansion. He had to climb to the fourth floor, where in the middle of the howling a neighborâ€™s boat appeared, and he and his wife got in it, and when they rode out, they were above the telephone wires.
I have often fantasized that is I lived in a shore town, it would be interesting to ride out a storm, to say you had withstood a hurricane, but a force like this â€“ my lord. I think of people whose houses exploded in the surge and of those farther inland that filled with water drowning them in a matter of minutes.
The remaining houses are spray painted with Xs by searchers, noting the time and what was found. If a number appears under the X, it stands for the number of bodies found in the home’s rubble. A medic found a regular patient, known and loved by the local crews, drowned in her home. That house got a “1” under the X. They took a house sign from her destroyed home and posted it back at their headquarters with a note in loving memory of the woman they all had cared for.
No one picture could describe the devastation. The lens isn’t wide enough to encompass the breadth. What you need is a video camera, and a slow drive along the beach road, recording the miles of destruction. A casino ripped in half, with one half ending up a half mile down the road in the middle of the street.
Giant hundred year old trees ripped out of the ground, crushing cars. Entire apartment complexes obilterated.
Where banks once stood were now only concrete slabs and the giant cement vaults. Nothing else. A church showing only its beams and steeple.
As we drive along the road, my local partner pointed out what was once there: a good place to get $1 breakfasts, a bar that people went to on Friday nights, an expensive condo complex, a historic home. All of it vanished.
In thinking about what kind of force could make that damage I think of Robert Johnson’s famous blues line. “A hell hound on my trail.”
Back at the base, they have dinner for us. They have hired a chef from one of the destroyed casinos and his lasagna is fantastic. As other crews come in from the road, I learn it has been a slow day all around. The local operation normally handles the area with 14 cars. They have had upwards of 40 on post storm. People are worried things will start to get busy as people with chronic diseases run out of their meds, and when rebuilders come in and start getting on roofs.
The schedule comes on. Iâ€™m on 9-2100, which will give me a chance to sleep until I wake up. I stay up watching the news on a TV with bad reception. The sports is all about college football. No baseball scores and only two NFL games.
Day Three – “Dooh!”/EGO
I sleep through the night. In the morning I have a breakfast of sausage, grits, biscuit and fruit.
I work with a nice 27-year-old guy from Oregon who would like to go to medical school. He has been in Mississippi going on three weeks so he is familiar with the roads.
Right off the back we are sent for a chest pain at one of the Red Cross Disaster relief centers. I have told him I am a good map person, but we shoot by the road because there are no street signs. I have to gauge by the map and what appear to be roads and I misgauge. We swing around, and the delay is only a minute or two.
The Red Cross center is in an industrial park. As we approach the road is crammed on both sides with cars for a great distance. People walk along the sides of the road as if they are walking to a sporting event. There is a huge line outside the gate, mothers carrying babies, trailed by children of varying sizes, old people holding each other up. A guard lets us in the gate and directs us toward a big open tent. Another man points us toward a table where three woman sit, none of them looking particularly well. I
ask who is sick and I am directed to two of the woman, who are both pale and diaphoretic. Their stories are similar. Both have had bypasses, one has two stents, both have been taking nitro. Both refuse to go to the hospital. The heat is over 100 degrees and sopping humid. Its just a little chest pain,â€ one says. â€œIâ€™m feeling quite better now that I am in the shade. I appreciate your wanting to help, but Iâ€™ll be fine. I donâ€™t want to make any trouble.â€
I plead with both of them to go to the hospital, but the closest I get is calling their physician. The line is busy, the woman says, though I wonder if she has not dialed her own cell phone number. While I am talking to one of the other women, the other woman says. â€œDoctor, Iâ€™m feeling fine really. I had a little chest pain, but its over, what you want me to come to your office, after Iâ€™ve got my check, well, twist my arm, okay. Bye.â€ I have turned now and am asking if I may talk to him, but she shrugs and says â€œSorry. I hung up. We both are going to see him later when weâ€™re done here. Thank you for being so nice and caring about us.â€
Just then, a large man profusely sweating man is being lead over by two others. He is only 37, but he has a history of an MI. he too has been gobbling nitro. â€œYou can check me out,â€ he says, â€œBut I ainâ€™t leaving until I get my check. I waited sixteen hours yesterday. Iâ€™m not leaving.â€
Nothing works, I make every appeal possible. Think of your family, think of the future. I donâ€™t want to come back and have to pound on your chest. No go. He isnâ€™t leaving. After giving them all aspirin (and doing 12 leads) we end up with three refusals, and a probably empty promises that they will call if they start to feel worse. The nurse has asked us if we can post a unit at the center. My partner tells me there are relief centers like this all over town with lines as long. I tell dispatch I think we will be sent back here and they have me talk to a supervisor who says he will look into it. I think you could easily lay out fifty cots and start running Ivs on all of them. Walking out there are people leaning against each other, holding each other up. The sun and humidity are brutal.
They send us to a new location, but for the rest of the day we hear other ambulances dispatched back to the center â€“ for chest pain, for dehydration, for asthma.
We are dispatched to another Red Cross center. This line is just as long. This one has an army medical team assigned. We are the second of three ambulances â€“all arriving lights and sirens for unknowns within ten minutes of each other. An army medic gives us a quick briefing. We have lots of dehydration. Weâ€™re in there starting lines. Just go in and help us triage, take the worst ones, and send another ambulance in. Itâ€™s getting out of control. The scene is surreal, people in fatigues, crowds of people, a helicopter sweeps low overhead. We go in, and a woman in fatigues says, “We have a baby who isnâ€™t responding. Sheâ€™s been in line since six thirty this morning. I put an ice pack on her and she doesnâ€™t flinch.” I see the baby, and snatch it from the mother. I give it a little pinch and it doesnâ€™t respond. â€œLetâ€™s go,â€™ I say. It is too crowded and chaotic in there to do a full assessment. One ambulance crew is loading a large sweating man on their stretcher, the third ambulance is just wheeling their stretcher in now. Iâ€™ll let them triage, Iâ€™m taking the kid. We race out to the ambulance and I have my partner hang a buretrol, then get in the front and drive. I strap a tourniquet around the kid, but I see no veins. I hold a 24 in my hand, but I donâ€™t have faith to stick. I get out the glucometer, and poke the kidâ€™s ear. Oh, to hear the noise. She wakes up and starts crying like a banshee. Now kids freak me out, and I always want to be safe rather than sorry, but I am regretting that I did not do my patented grab a piece of their skin near their belly pinch and twist hard when I first held her. I was freaked out by their setting. This is just a kid who was tired and sleeping soundly, and who really isnâ€™t very sick. It is certainly no longer an unconscious child. I feel silly at the hospital explaining that I think the kid in fact is really okay. Now that we are in the air-conditioned hospital, and the baby is safely in his motherâ€™s arm, the baby stops crying and seems quite normal. Baby and mother are sent to the waiting room.
Our next call is for an MVA. We arrive to find a woman lying in the middle of the road. The fire department is already there and they have put a collar on her. She is alert, and seems okay. When her air bag went off, the she got out of the car, but then lay down in the road because she thought that was the thing to do. I get the stretcher and wheel it over. I look for the release to lower it, but I canâ€™t find it. I nod to a cop on scene and ask him to take the head end, while I pull the foot release and we lower it down. We get the woman c-spined, and over onto the stretcher. I am at the head end now, and a firefighter is at the foot end. Ready to go up I say. He pulls the release and I lift up, but the wheels donâ€™t drop. â€œYou have to pull the release,” he says. I look at my end and there is a release there too. We both pull our releases and the wheels finally drop. My partner has to show me how to put the stretcher in the ambulance. The head end has to go into a load position, then a latch is pulled, then the foot end, pulls a lever and the stretcher is pushed in. Boy do I feel stupid. I have never seen a stretcher like this before. The worst part is my partner asked me in the morning if I knew how their stretcher worked. My internal answer of â€œDaah!â€ in the morning turned into “Dooh!” when I had to work the stretcher. You learn something new everyday.
Next we are sent to another hospital to pick up a man who has been having increased confusion and falls for a week. They did a CAT scan and it showed he has a subdural hematoma. One of his pupils has just blown. He needs to be transported to a distant hospital where they have a neuro ICU. He is a 73 year old with a thick Mississippi accent wearing a white tank top tee shirt. Between his accent and his confusion, I have a hard time carrying on a conversation as we race along the highway.
On the way back, we stop at a highway rest stop to get a hamburger. Gas is a little expensive down there.
We’re posted in the outskirts off the highway. A guy approaches us and asks us if we have any glucometer strips. He is a nurse with a team who’s job it is to check on the welfare of other nurses working in the disaster area, and they have a diabetic nurse in the hotel there who isn’t feeling well. They have glucometers but no strips. His glucometer isn’t compatabile with ours so he ends up asking if we wouldn’t mind going in and checking on the nurse with him. We bring all our gear, including the glucometer and the heart monitor. There is another nurse in the hotel room with the nurse who isn’t feeling well and she is somewhat offended by our presence. I go to take vitals and she says she has already done that. She tells us she has fully assessed her, she is a nurse and all she needs is the woman’s blood sugar checked. My partner and I both have the impulse to slam her, but we don’t. I think we handle her with respect, while still doing what we need to do. There is no sense in getting into pissing fights when the goal is to just help people. The ill nurse refuses transport. I have the offended nurse sign the refusal as a witness. She puts a lot of letters after her name.
We go to a waffle house to use the rest room, and end us in a conversation with a retired army chaplain and his wife. The chaplain, who wears an oxygen cannula has come down from Michigan on his home to help counsel people. he starts telling us about World War II, while his wife sits there patiently. We hear about the time the Germans came over the hill at them. We shake his hand, compliment him on his life and his heart for coming down to help people, and then make our exit.
I start to think about the issue of EGO and what motivates us to “do good.” Why am I in Mississippi? Is it because I am “good person” or is it because I want to be able to tell people I went to Mississippi so they will gather around and hear my stories? Am I pure of heart or does my heart have other motives? And does it really matter what your motives are if you are doing the work? I always want stories. I like to be able to say “There I was!” When I was a kid one of my favorite cartoons was Commander McBrag. His catch line was “There I was tiger in front of me, lion to the left, a band of savages attaching from the rear, an alligator filled swamp on my left.”
At the camp one night there was a big debate over people who come for the wrong reasons. One person said they came because they wanted to help people, not because they wanted to say they were there. I don’t think the reasons you do what you are ever so clear cut. On one hand we can puff out our chests and say we are here helping the victims of the hurricane out of the goodness of our hearts, which we are, but at the same time we are not volunteering in the strictest sense. We are getting paid to be here. Few of us asked what we would be paid or how we would be paid when we volunteered to go. I would have gone for nothing (as when I went to the Dominican I paid my way). But even if I wasn’t being paid, it wouldn’t be for nothing, because I would be getting experience in return, and experience to me is as valuable as money. I also go because it makes me feel better about myself. Would I go if it made me feel worse? There is some hardship in leaving your life at home for a week and sleeping on a cot in a room full of snoring people, but it is only a week.
The people who impress me the most down here are not the people from FEMA or the Red Cross or the ambulance or the utility workers, it is the common people — individuals or small groups who have collected supplies from their neighborhoods, loaded up trucks and come down and passed the stuff out — food, water, clothing, even money. No bureacracy, no processesing or paperwork, just getting the work done. There is a purity there that I admire.
Our company has a plan where you can donate some of your unused paid time off to fellow employees who are sick or suffering hardships. I have never done it. Maybe I should. I definately should. I should do it and not tell anyone, except whoever I need to tell in order to do it.
I admire anoynmous donors.
It is sort of like the old saying If a tree falls in the forest and no one hears it, does it make any noise? Of course it makes noise.
I read an article in USA Today about the guy who founded Domino’s Pizza, then sold it for $1 billion. The guy gave up his yachts, his mansions, his rich life, and has very quietly been living a simple life, and giving all his money away to charitable causes, and giving it away without fanfare.
What would most churchgoers do when faced with this decision? Every week, you put a twenty dollar bill in the collection plate as all your fellow church goers look on. You have the choice now, of giving God or whoever $20 on the sly, which he will match also on the sly with the only sticking point being when the plate is passed to you, you have to pass it to the next person without putting any money in. So the church is getting $40 instead of $20 because of your choice, but all your neighbors now think you are a cheapshake, but you can’t tell them why you don’t put anything in. What do you do? It should be an easy choice.
I’m working on trying to be the best paramedic I can this week, and aside from screwing up with the stretcher, I feel I’m doing okay. I am being excellent at using my name and the patient’s name. I am also slowing down my talk, which I think is a good idea. Years ago I was a telephone soliciter for a national company, and when I would come to work each day, I’d get a new list of numbers to call. Some days I called people in big Northern cities like Pittsburg, others, I’d call customers in small towns in the South. I learned that what worked in one place, didn’t always work in the other. In Pittsburg I used my best rapid fire TV/used car salesman voice “LetmetellyouDaisyHaveIgotaDEALforYOU. IamofferingyouTWOthat’s rightTWOTWOsilkpillowsforthepriceofONLYONE. If I used that voice in the the small Southern towns they would hang up on me. I had to slow it down. “Well, hello…there..Daisy…How are you…this fine morning…Let me tell you why I am calling.”
In addition to trying to talk slower, I am asking myself in each situation, what does this person need from me. How can I leave them better than when I found them? The old chaplin in the Waffle House. We listened to his story about the Germans that he has told a thousand times, we complimented him and his wife. We tried to show that we valued him and appreciated him, then we left before he could tell us another story.
Dinner is over before we get back, but they have set aside meals for the later crews. Tonight there is pork and it is good.
I have no trouble falling asleep.
Day Four – Oh Well/Mississippi?
I heard someone say the other night that while there are some regional differences, a paramedic is basically a paramedic and the practice is pretty much the same everywhere. I agree, but also part of being a paramedic is being comfortable with your equipment, with your setting, with your routine. A good paramedic can improvise, but it does help to have a certain underpinning like a captain who knows his boat and his area of the sea.
First call is for an unknown. The fire department arrives at the church before us and we find them grabbing a skinny woman who is screaming “Its a lie! Its a lie! I didn’t kill myself. I didn’t kill myself!” She is out of her mind. I hear someone say she has been smoking the stuff. The firefighters who are both big men, walk her out to us. She is fighting and now starting to spit. They throw her down face first on our stretcher. I announce that I want to sedate her. One of the firefightres says we are close to the hospital. Maybe ten minutes away. The woman is creaming spiting and trying to bite. “Let’s get her in the ambulance and I’ll sedate her,” I say.
Under my protocols, I would give her injections of Ativan and Haldol and in two minutes she would be snoring. The gear in Mississippi doesn’t have Ativan of Haldol. All I carry here is Valium. The problem with Valium is I can’t give it IM, I have to give it IV. An additional problem is they don’t carry saline locks, so if I want to give the patient Valium, I have to hang a bag of Saline. Whiule my partner spikes the bag, I put an IV in the back of her arm while the fire guys hold her down as she continues to buck and shout and spit and try to bite. He hands me the line, and I try to take it down — they have no Veneguards. The poatient is diaphoretic, the tape sticks to my gloves. I finally get it taped down. I draw up the Valium, put it through the rubber port, then open up the line. It won’t run. I know my line is good, but I can’t get the fluid to run. I examine the drip set — it is foeigh nto me. The roller clamp is above the drip chamber. I try to trouble shoot, but can’t get it to run. I then have to find a syring, drwa up some saline and flush the the Valium in through the rubber port. It flushes fine, but still the line won’t run. The next thing I know the IV has been ripped out in the patient’s flayling and the Valium I did get in doesn’t seem to have made any impact. We finally get to the hospital where they give her Ativan and Haldol and there she is sleeping like a Baby. I examine my Valium and discover
I only gave her 2 milligrams instead of 4. I was expecting to give up to 10 depending on how she reacted. My mistake comes from the fact the Valium is stored in a syringe similar identical to the morphine we catrry back home and here in Mississippi. Execept the morphine is 10 milligrams in 1 cc, the Valium in 10 milligrams in 2 ccs. In the heart of the battle, I thought I was drawing up 4 mg, but in fact I was only drawing up 2. Not enought bay any means to sedate a person.
At the hospital I beg the nurses to give me some saline locks and they are happy to oblidge. I want to ask for some ativan and haldol, but don’t think I will get anywhere with that request.
We do a chest pain, which I think is just an anxiety — a local business owner under stress. He thanks us for helping him. His ECG looks good, his skin is warm and dry, good vitals. He has had similar pain and be told by his doctors it is stress. Two nitro don’t help. I work him up, give him some aspirin, some 02, but stop the nitro after two.
We do a psych — an 18 year old who has been told to move out by his adoptive father. The cop tells me there are some 10-80s in the family. I think he means some of the family died in the storm, but I am told later that 10-80 is local slag for an AIDS patient. Eighty. AIDy.
The last call is a fall at the airport. A man who has been obviously drinking has taken a tumble down about ten stairs. The fire department has a c-collar on him. We board him and get him out to the ambulance. The man has no idea why he is in Mississippi. He claims no knowledge of the hurricane. I look at his license and the photo there is one a bearded madman. One eye closed, the other cocked wide. He looks like he has just beat his wife, kicked the dog, downed a fifth of jack Daniels and walked into a pool hall ready to fight.
I don’t know if he has a concussion or is just completely hammered, but I work him up. He knows his name, social security number and home addresses, but he has no clue why he is in Mississippi. “Mississippi?” he says. “What am I doing in Mississippi?”
It takes forever for us to get from the hospital back to the base. The traffic jams are horrendous with so many roads closed. In the passenger seat, it seems like I fall asleep, open my eyes, and we’re only ten yards down the road. I fall asleep again, open my eyes and we are still not through the light.
At dinner we talk about the new hurricane, Hurricane Rita that is headed into the Gulf. One of the local guys, who lost everything in Katrina says he hopes it hits us. “Everything is already destroyed here. No one should go through that.”
Day Five – Such a Storm
I tell myself no surprises today. I get in my ambulance an hour early and check it out from top to bottom, then set it up the way I want it. I am pleased to find this ambulance has Haldol in its jump kit — a day too late. The ambulances are from many states as is the gear, so each day is an adventure in what you will have to work with. While the Haldol is the good news, the bad news is the intubation kit only has the crappy disposable intubation blades (We tried them a few years back and had several cases of the blades bending) and an old Life Pack 10 lacking even the hands off pads. If I have to shock someone it will be the old fashioned way, lubing up the paddles with gel, and pressing them hard against the chest. BAM! I do confess I liked doing it that way.
Our first call is to one of the relief centers where we were at two days before, the one with the army people. I get an awesome report from the army medic, top to bottom assesment, history, almost down to the color of the patient’s last poop. I complimented the medic on it. I was very impressed. The patient is an obese woman in her late sixties with some breathing difficulty. She is supposed to be on oxygen at home, but since the storm has had no power, consequently no oxygen. She also has been out of her inhaler. I give her a treatment and she is doing much better. As we go to the hospital we have a bit of a dialogue, though I have a hard time understanding her deep Mississippi accent. Here’s about what it sounds like:
##############Since I was a chile##############such a storm################our boys over there######that man.#######################Thought I’d never see the day#################################It done takes the cake.####
More traffic. Unbelievably slow.
We get called for a guy who fell off a roof. These calls have been going out all day. There is hardly a roof that doesn’t have someone up on it, working to repair or replace it. The man has fallen through the roof and landed on concrete twenty feet below. He may have had a brief period of unconciousness, but he remembers falling and is complaining of pain in his side and back. He has some welling and redness on his left flank. When I palpate his pelvis he feels pain and he can’t lift his legs without pain, although he is able to move them. I find it curious that he already has a c-collar on while we are the first unit there. We c-spine him, and take him on a priority to the hospital. He is grey, clammy and has a pressure of barely 90, yet he is thanking me for coming down to help, and asking me where I am from. A little poke, I say, as I put a 16 in his wrist. That wasn’t a little poke, he says. Sorry. He keeps his good manner.
It turns out he has a broken pelvis, broken ribs, and later a hemothorax. My partner solves the mystery of the c-collar. It seems a fire truck came by, ran in, put a collar on the guy, then said they were actually on another call and help would be there soon. Interesting.
We get sent on a priority one for an unknown and I don’t know whether they have us in the wrong area or all the other cars on on calls, but it takes us 40 minutes to get there through the traffic, through my misreading the map (our map books were by quadrants, so you had to keep flipping pages), and one street sign turned around pointing the wrong direction. Anyway, it turns out to be a psych. He is bipolar and we have quite a conversation. He is down on a mission to help people, but claims his partner is holding all the cash and he hasn’t been able to afford his meds. I’m sure his partner has a different story. He is from Boston and we talk about the Red Sox and before the ride is over I am assured he is personal friends with half the most famous sports figures in New England History.
Our last call is for a possible stroke. It is a small ranch house on a street just a block or two from other streets where all the houses have been destroyed. We find a woman in her forties sitting in a chair like she is paralyzed. Her mouth is shaking, her eyes look very scared, and she is crying. She seems very spastic. But her pupils are equal and reactive, her skin warm and dry, her grips equal. She can answer me in brief words, that are not slurred. The neighbor who called us said they were talking about their lives and they were both crying, and then suddenly she started acting wierd. She tells us the woman’s boyfriend in on an off-shore oil rig. There is a new hurricane, already named Rita that is threatening to be as big as Katrina. I don’t know what to think. The woman’s pressure is good, but her heart rate is in the 140’s. I’m guessing it is some sort of psychological episode, but I work her up anyway. IV, 02, monitor. At the hospital, when I walk by her room, she follows me with her eyes.
We have spaghetti for dinner. Every one is talking about the hurricane and where it will hit. It is projected for Texas, but one big turn to the right and it will right at us. “I hope it hits us,” one of the guys says. He lost everything in Katrina. “We’re already destroyed. No one else should have to go through that.”
There is talk of moving some resources to Texas. I think about what the company has set up here and I have to hand it to them. I don’t know
what kind of arrangements they have with FEMA, but whoever is in charge of seeing that things get done in Mississippi, can easily put a check mark by EMS and say, “We got it covered.”
Day Six – Resiliency
I have breakfast with one of the guys from another division in our state who came down a day before I did. We talk about how a trip like this can change you. Any time you can get outside your normal life, it can’t help but make you different.
What impresses me is the resiliency I see in people’s eyes and their voices. You ask people for their address and they say, “Where I used to live? or where I’m staying now?” Maybe they haven’t hit the angry portion of the grieving process or maybe they have just blew right on by it. I imagine what I would think if I saw my house flattened into a timber, a mound of wet irrecoverable junk. What would I grieve for — a crushed car? a smashed computer? a lifetime of collected books ruined by water and mud? Seeing it all piled together makes me see how little material possessions mean. These people have made it through their darkest of storms, and in the morning, they look at their homes, and what they see rising out of the rubble of their old lives is their families, their grandparents, their mothers and father, their own children. “I lost everything, but my family made it through, praise mercy.” I hear that over and over again. “My family made it through.”
Another thing that has impressed me is the kindness people have showed us. EMS people often complain this is a thankless job, but I have never been thanked more than in this last week. From patients to store clerks to people on the street, thank you was all we heard. It made you feel good about your life’s choice of work.
I’m glad for the opportunity to come down here, and I hope more of my fellow employees will get to come in future weeks.
I work again today with the guy from Portland, which is good because he’s a nice guy and I like having a regular partner. We are posted down by the water. There is a good breeze blowing, and I try to imagine what it would like to sit there in the ambulance as a hurricane came in. I imagine the ambulance being picked up and whisked away like Dorothy in Oklahoma, ending up miles away in a big tree.
We examine the Treasure Bay Casino or what’s left off it. It looks like a true shipwreck.
We park next to what once was a Burger King — only there is nothing there but one table and chair.
It is surreal down by the water. The area is blocked off by razor wire and then only let down rescue personnel, construction workers and residents looking to go over the shambles of their homes. It is not uncommon to see rescue workers walking around with cameras talking pictures of the destruction like we are in some living museum. I have so far resisted talking any novelty pictures. There is a miniature golf course where someone has put Humpty-Dumpty back on the wall and police and firemen line up to have their pictures taken with him. At one house that like so many is just a slab, someone has set up a porcelain toilet. I have heard of people having their pictures taken, pants around their ankles, reading a newspaper as they sit on that toilet with all the outdoors around them. I have such mixed feelings about taking any pictures at all. I put my camera away, but then fifty yards later see something so amazing I have to take another picture. I waver between respect for what happened and the natural human desire to laugh. I finally relent and pose for a picture drinking a Coke at Burger King.
We give out some tetanus shots, then a car drives up and worker gets out with a huge gash on his arm where he cut it on a piece of tile. We wrap it and take him to the hospital. There we talk with the nurses about the coming hurricane. They call up satellite photos and path projections on the hospital computer and give us a lecture on hurricanes that is quite impressive. It seems just about anyone who has lived ten years on the gulf coast knows enough to be an expert. They talk about the pressure systems and barometer readings and cite how Elaine bounced like this, and Ivan turned right like this. They all think the new hurricane will turn right and hit right on the Texas Louisiana border. The real tell they say is to watch the weather channel. One of the old guys on their is the one to watch. Wherever he sets up is where it will hit. Old so and so always knows where the hurricanes are going. If he comes to your neighborhood ahead of the storm, look out.
We sit around. It is a quiet day. I eat an MRE for lunch. It is very good. Jambalaya. You drop the package in a plastic bag that has some kind of heating coil in it that is activated by water. It steams the meal in just a couple minutes. The MRE package also includes wheat bread, cheese sauce, a powdered grape drink and a pack of MMs.
Around one, they call us back to the base. It seems they are going to be taking our car and sending it to Texas to get ready for the storm there. Since it is slow, they tell us to take the rest of the shift off. I want to go back on the road, but they say they have enough cars on. I’m not happy to be sitting around camp. I’m down here to respond to help, but what can you do if you don’t have a car. I guess the afternoon off is good for some of the people who have been here longer than me or who are less used to working every day.
I watch them prepare the ambulances, loading them with supplies and a portable generator. Two of the people going to Texas are guys who lost everything in the storm here. It sort of a good will message. You helped us, we’ll help you.
The only benefit to being in camp is they are serving fried catfish for dinner, and it is some fine eating catfish. I eat my first dinner at four, then have a second dinner at eight.
That night I talk to a woman from one of our state’s divisions. She has traveled all over the world on humanitarian missions. She has enjoyed her week here, but is ready to go — a week is enough. There are emergencies at home too. We work in an ambulance, we respond to calls. There are people coming down to replace us. There are more than enough calls waiting for us at home as well. Wherever they need us, we do the same work, up there or down here.
FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 23, 2005
Day Seven- Gators
I am working with a local girl from Mississippi. I tell her I need a diet coke to start my morning off so she takes me to a place called Sonic, which is an old time drive-up with rollerskaking waitresses. A woman with rather fat legs on roller skates brings me a can of Diet Coke on a tray. That wakes me up.
My partner tells me how she and her partner were lost for two days during the storm, having to take refuge in first a fire station than later in a sewage treatment plant as the waters rose. At one point she and her partner were joking about how their car was going to need a little more than an “Orangeline Special” washing at the end of the day. Not long after they were wading in chest deep water as part of human chain trying to get to higher ground. She also told me about being sent into KMART in the darkness with only a flashlight to get needed radio supplies to get the communications system running, and suddenly getting very scared by a strange foreboding, and then hurrying to get the supplies and get out of the store. Later she heard that six corpses were found in the store along with four
Outside all the shopping centers there are piles of wet clothes, the remains of donations.
I ask my partner whether people got many clothes from the donations. She says they did, but as one of her regular partners — a large girl herself — said. “What makes all these little itty bitty Yankee woman who ain’t seen a sandwich inside the last three months think us healthy Southern women are going to be able to fit in anything they send down here?”
Our first call is for chest pain. We arrive outside a motel to find a young man hyperventilating. “He don’t speak a lick of English,” the firefighter tells us, then I start rattling off the Spanish with him, and they are somewhat amazed to see a paramedic talking Spanish. It turns out the guy is from Honduras and his baby sun died there three months ago. He works and sends what money he can back. This morning, all of a sudden he was having trouble breathing and his hands got very cold and he was scared. By the time we get to the hospital, he is feeling much better.
We spend most of the day on the shore. My partner takes me down to the WalMart which is now a see through WalMart.
She tells me how the security guard there always used to give them a hard time about parking in the fire lane, threatening to write them tickets. She said after the storm when they went down there, they drove right up to the fire lane and took pictures of themselves standing in front of the ambulance parked there.
By the water the wind is really whipping up as the hurricane approaches. Port-o-potties are getting blown over and knocked across the road.
We talk to a police officer who is on the lookout for waterspouts.
We give out some more tetanus shots to workers.
We do a call for a motor vehichle and find a woman with neck pain. What is funny is how down there everybody knows everyone. A firefighter introduces us to the patient by saying “This is Patty, John down at central fire’s sister’s cousin’s neighbor’s wife. She got four kids, two dogs and cooks a fine apple cobbler.”
“Okay,” I say, and I tell her my name and say it my pleasure to make her aquaintence, circumstances aside.
Our last call is in a poor neighborhood for a man feeling week. He has colon cancer and hasn’t seen the doctor for awhile. He ran out of colostomy bags during the storm and hasn’t had one one for three weeks now. His abdomen is stained with feces and there are flies landing all over him. His nail beds are white and while I can’t get a pressure, he is only going at 96 on the monitor. We take him in.
The shift is over and they bring us back to the base. Dinner is country fried steak, and as always it is mighty fine.
The new people from our division have come down and I give them tips on what to expect. “Its just like up North,” I say, “You do ambulance calls, except the people are very thankful and the scenery is mindblowing. And you need to play with the stretchers before you put your patients on them. You’ll have a great time.”
Eleven-o’clock I’m in bed.
Day Eight – The Earth
I awaken shortly after midnight. The high winds of Hurricane Rita have knocked down one of the tents where sixteen EMTs and paramedics were sleeping. We need to push our cots closer together to make room for the temporarily homeless tent people.
I am soon back to sleep, and awaken on the tired side. I have a late breakfast of pancakes and sausage. I’m on the afternoon plane out of town so there is no going on the road today. I get an early lunch of cheesesteak, macaroni and cheese spiced with crawfish and spicy sausage, and a slice of apple pie.
I am sorry to be leaving. I think it was a great experience to be down on the Gulf Coast and to witness the strength and goodness of the people as they rebuild their lives after the storm’s fury.
While waiting for the bus, one of the local workers comes over and says, “Thank you for coming. We appreciate it.”
He holds out his hand and we shake.
“You’re welcome. I know you’d come up for us if we needed the help.”
“You can sure put my name on that list,” he says.
As he walks away, I call after him, the words coming to me now. “Thank you,” I say, “For showing us what’s important.”
He smiles. “Sometimes the littlest things — that you sometimes forget about — are the biggest.”
I understand what he means.
At the airport, I learn my reservation has been canceled. There was a mixup in the reservations and I was supposed to be on the earlier flight. The other nine head to Atlanta and I wait in Gulfport for four hours till I can get a later flight. To make matters worse when I go through security, they pull me out of the line and practically strip search me. It was funny on the way down, not so funny now. I admit to being tired. The guards try to make small talk, but I am in no mood. I just hold my arms up silently. My zipper makes their electric wand go off, so my crotch gets patted down with the back of a gloved hand. I know they are just doing their job. Next I stand there while they meticulously go through my carry-on bag. At last I am clear. I make a connection in Atlanta and arrive back in New England after ten. The company division head picks me up, which is nice, but after he drops me at my car and takes off, the car won’t start, and I have to find someone to jump me.
Home at last, I have a cold beer and sit again in the quiet. I think again about Mississippi and also about my trip to the Dominican. I am grateful for what I have seen this year, grateful to be healthy enough to help others, grateful to be able to walk the earth.